Ok, so this isn't exactly poetry. But I figured I could do this anyway, give it a try.
The object is to reply, relate, criticize, just give feedback on what I type. I would appreciate honest, non-bullcrap advice and answers.

Over the past three years I have devoted all of my time to a person of interest. I was there, I helped, I gave comfort, I was a friend, and ultimately a lover. Things where fine for awhile...he called to say goodnight like he always did. He visited once in awhile too...but things became harder to plan after he went to college. But I dealt with it....and was satisfied that he could atleast commite to me still. And things were fine....our relationship stayed constant. But come to find out....after he eventually "Got what he wanted"...he began to act completely different...and it seemed as if that was the only thing I was usefull for to him now.
But I pushed that aside, and continued to love him for who and what he was without rebellion. Now yes...he would occassionally say "I love you"....but it never eased my nerves. So things went on...and got worse....it got to the point where he we avoiding me and saying that he didn't want to see me anymore...that he needed to move on with his life and leave me behind. I couldn't understand why he was doing this to me...I didn't know what I had done to make him hate me so. I spent so many nights crying myself to sleep over the fact that he had said I will never be enough for him. On the phone...when I was literally crying and trying to do anything that I could to keep him in my life the only thing he could say was "Are you done yet?". He ignored me...completely shut me out of his life. And even though I had explained and pleaded with him that I didn't care that I couldn't be with him anymore...that I just wanted him to stay a part of my life, as a friend....he turned his back and walked away.
All I ever did was love him...and I LITERALLY gave him everything...without question, and without doubt. I trusted him, I confided in him to love me as he said he would. I have no choice but to let go...he doesn't care, he doesn't want me, he doesn't love me. I don't know what I'm supposed to do. I feel like I'm missing a piece of myself...and I can't fill that empty space.
Even though he said I did nothing to cause this....I don't believe it. I don't understand how he could go 3 years saying that he loved me and suddenly say "I'm looking for a keeper, and that isn't you". I don't want to care anymore.....so...what am I supposed to do? Where do I go from here???